Yes...it was a year ago that I began this little blog. I started it in an effort to communicate with friends and family while I jumped off a bridge and flew off to China for 3 months. It then morphed into musings on life, the universe, and everything, but ended up a little boring as once I returned from China last December I didn't have much to say. Searching for work, searching for your goals in life, etc., etc., apparently doesn't lend itself to much communication with the outside world.
But I thought I could take this time to list a few things that I have learned over the last year:
- I am not as open-minded and able to adapt easily as I always imagined myself. My trip to China taught me where my boundaries are and where I need to let go and let life be life rather than trying to control it.
- Looking for a job sucks. I mean really sucks. While I have had some incredible validation from some amazing people that I "should" be able to find a job (and have come relatively close a couple of times), the reality is decidedly more humiliating and confidence-crushing. The only thing that has gotten me through is having wonderful friends that have done their damnedest to keep my spirits up...but it still sucks!
- Tangential to #2 is I've learned that I have the BEST FRIENDS EVER!!!
- I need to stop thinking so much about what is logical and expected, but start thinking about what will make me happy and make the world a better place.
- Control over one's life is completely impossible, despite my best efforts. Every day now I am having to learn all over again that I don't know what is going to happen, and if I try to make the future conform to my ideas of what it should be I will go insane.
- Doing something difficult and new for someone else is amazingly rewarding, and the payoff is seeing these numbers rise...
I'll leave you for now with some of my favorite photos from this last year:
Hopefully I'll find a new voice and you'll hear from me again soon.
